| Woah! First term a cambridge has come and gone, in a blink of an eye my first experience of university life has flown by. yet i have still to let it all soak in, frankly i don't know if i like it all that much (yet)? First week here was a slight culture shock for me, man, though it definitely is a classless university with such diversity, it can still be overwhelming sometimes when you strike up conversations with people and they go "so what do your parents do?" etc how do you respond in the right way when people have parents in high places, professorships in this and that, works for the WHO, has chalets in france or owns a ski slope in america??? perhaps iam just a bit of a bumpkin, being the first person in my family to go to university? fortuantly i can say that i was able to get over that intial "wow" factor, and just be myself, in a slightly crazy and quirky way. i must say i have learned to embrace cambridge and all the trimmings that go with it, formal hall is fun, and a posh tosh accent here and there can be more fun than anything else :) hmn....obviously, a lot of discussionn around students in cambridge is the overhanging cloud of "work" or essay crisis!!! ahhhhhhh! im glad to say that as i sit here, tap tap tapping away, ive finished my work for the term, and my director of studies doesn't believe in work during vacation period, he believes his tudents need the rest during vacation in order to work just as hard next term. Either that, or he understands that 8 weeks is probably max time that a human being can sleep very little, eat very little, have OT nights in library and still fit a 'sociable' life in??? i have learnt this term, that i work best past 12am, quietness is key, and twixes and milky ways are the best form of pick me ups whilst doing a overnighter in the lib (note. red bull the next morning is a necessity or you will get laughed at in lectures the for falling asleep and having your head hover over the table swaying.....) although work is hard, i must say i enjoy it :) ive realised i do really like doing geography, theres so much in the world, not only today but in the past as well and it makes me study in awe :) just to remove some stigma as well, (for geography anyway) theres very lttle competition...we just try and pull everyone across the finishing the line, and little library huddles have lots of encouragement! anyway...more importantly...where has God been in all of this and what have i learnt about myself? (woah....deeeeeeeeeeeeeeep) sadly, God hasn't been my first port of call on more than one occassion this term, BUT he has show me his grace and love in his everlasting and enduring subsistenence. He is always there no matter what. it is not him that turns away, but it is us. he continues to call to me 24/7, every second, every minute, calling out to me to seek him and find strength in him. he continues to talk to me whether or not iam listening, he isnt discouraged by rejection. he doesn't reject mistakes, but embraces them and makes them be a form of strength. and this term, for me, no matter how deep a hole ive dug myself in, he has continued to call out to me, he has continued to dangle down an everlasting rope of rescue. all i have to do is take it in both hands and be hauled up. i need to be stronger next term, to have God as my foundation, to respond when he calls now...6 weeks of vacation, christmas! this is not a comeback |
